Im getting lucky tonight. *grins*

Blister In The Sun.

Someone stole my Twisties limited edition pack and I'm hungry now.

Someone please feed me.

I'd take shower at 3 in the morning thinking that I would feel better after that, in fact, yes, a little better but not entirely. What I do now is to suffer alone and try to make him dead.

The world seems dead to me anyway.

In joy and sorrow, it's all mixed up.

I want to talk to him.
No, I dont want to talk to him.

I want to see him.
No, I dont want to see him.

Goddamn paranoia. Goddamn depression. Goddamn reality.

I feel awful. Theres no motivation for me to do anything. I slept when the sun almost rises from the horizon, got up, do nothing and then when the sun almost sets, I took naps. Abnormal. I feel downright sick.

At some point, I'd feel emotional, filled with expressions. Passionate love and bleeding depression. Sing myself lullabies and sing myself to sleep, I'd cry and reminisce.

On the other hand, I'd feel cold like a stone. I'd close my heart. Shut off everyone who tried to reach me, including family members and friends. I'd wander off alone.

[music]
Incubus - I Miss You

Silent Reverie.

Emotional is how I feel right now.

To the rebirth of a new day, I will go to sleep tonight without you.

Goodnight, whatever you're doing and wherever you are, my sweet.

[music]
Pete Yorn - Sleep Better

Attached.

Yes, he is.

With my eyes, I witnessed.

*sniff*

Bloody hell. I cant stop sneezing.

I know you miss me.

Hallelujah!

I've finished reading "Sinners" by Jackie Collins within a day! A total of 38 chapters in a row. Now that's a record!

Sheesh, this is hardcore reading man.

And I've been browsing through Tiffany & Co.'s website. They've got lovely accessories! Earrings! Bracelets! Necklaces! Rings! *faints*

If I ever get married, I'm going to get Tiffany & Co.'s engagement ring. They're gorgeous!!! *drools*

[music]
Michael Buble - Come Fly With Me

A whisper.

I hear the sound of a ticking of clocks
Remember your face, and remember see where you are gone
I hear the sound of the ticking of clocks
Come back and look for me, look for me when I am lost

Just a whisper, whisper, whisper, whisper

Night turns to day and I still have these questions
You just won't break, should I go forwards or backwards
Night turns to day and I've still got no answers

Just a whisper, whisper, whisper, whisper

Now I hear the sound of a ticking of clocks
Remember your face, and remember see where you are gone
I hear the sound of the ticking of clocks
Come back and look for me, look for me when I am lost

by Coldplay

I was browsing through my collection of cds the other day and on impulse I picked up Coldplay's second album - A Rush of Blood To The Head and popped it into the cd player. I loved it, especially Green Eyes, Warning Sign, A Rush of Blood To The Head, Amsterdam and the other hit singles from this album as well.

Those songs reminded me of him.

I guess we are over now.